My father is a recovering alcoholic. He drank throughout my childhood & into my teen years. Needless to say I became very familiar with the AA program & some of their philosophies. He had a wooden plaque with the Serenity Prayer on it & I spent so much time reviewing it that I memorized it. It's really very applicable to any situation in life & although I'm not religious it's just a good mantra to live by:
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.
What's my point? Last night I was thinking about myself & the way I see me. I am constantly comparing myself to other women wondering if I'm as big or bigger than they are - I have a terrible perception of myself.
We have a friend who lost a lot of weight over the past year & I'm constantly asking John if I'm heavier than her. I'm so proud of her progress but I have a hard time believing that she lost it all by not eating sugar or that she's a size 10; I really don't feel that I'm much bigger than her (I'm an 18/20). I also look at some of my heavier friends & how they also have boobs - I do not. Gosh this post really isn't making me sound like a nice person...